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today, as you probably noticed, is my dad’s birthday. well, technically that was yesterday,but i haven’t slept yet so it is still today. we went to my gran and grandad’s house for a meal and then went to see ‘Midsummer Nights Dream’, the show that my dad (and my little brother) is in. it was relaly good. all the costumes were beautiful, and the set and lighting looked fantastic. it was really fun and a really warm play to watch. i was gutted because it was the one that i was in but, because of exams, i had to pull out of. it seemed like a really nice cast and crew, and i was sad that i couldn’t be in it, but it was good all the same.
i need some sleep really, and i should have done an english essay, but i never got the time, so i am going to update properly tomorrow, or sometime soon. night night x
Filed under: Update | Tags: art, doctors, drama, ED's, exams, food, heartbreak beautiful, history, National Theatre, NT, Update, weight
I’m back. from a long time gone. I don’t know why i haven’t posted in so long. It’s been busy. I’ve been hectic.
Exams are beginning, and coursework dates are nearing closed, so everything is running at hyper-speed. Which is ok, it puts me into action, gets me working. I had a bit of a breakdown with my art exam, but i think everything is back on track now, so hopefully i will be alright in the end. I know so many of the dates for History it keeps me comfortable, and English seems to be sailing ok. It is just Drama that i still have full blow lessons for, it is a Performing Arts BTEC so i don’t have an exam, which is cool – but it means there is a lot of portfolio work to be done.
I have been eating a bit better, which is good. Although my mentality about it seems to be deteriating. I have a doctors appointment tomorow at 2.30, it is just a check-up, to check my weight isn’t fluctuating, and that i am ok, but it does make me feel a lot better that i have an eye on me.
Heartbreak Beautiful’s Watford performance is getting close, and i hope it is gonna be good, especially because of the amounts of effort some people are putting in to get there. It was good at the home showing, and the NT guy seemed to like it. He is coming back to watch it again, as is the writer, and i think a couple of directors. Let’s just hope we can keep up the standards.
I will get back to frequent updates. I love the feeling of documenting. I haven’t written in my diary for weeks now. It is starting to get me down. I’ll get back to it soon enough. Fingers crossed.
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LISTEN to this song. it is so good.
mock english lit tomorrow. woop. i love exams.
i bought a new dress today and it makes me feel like i am happy and the summer will never fade. i love this feeling.
he’s home soon. cannot wait!
sorry for not being very talky. i need to clear my head. but i cant clear it too much or it’ll all come out and then i wont have time for revision. and i haven’t much interesting to say.
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i have learnt a lot tonight. Wolsey was madeRoyal Almoner in 1509, Archbishop of York in 1514 and Cardinal and Lord Chancellor in 1515. He went on to be arrested in 1530 for treason, and died in the tower on November 24th 1530.
thanks to Harry.
but he helped with more than that tonight. he really put a smile on my face. the mighty hand of chocolate and the power of words.
BUT i miss a certain someone quite a lot. thank the lord for facebook. it’s less than a week now, and he’ll be back for easter – so it’s ok. always look up when you feel down? it’s the only thing to do for now.
Filed under: Update | Tags: corrupt, hungry, josie underwood, love, shut it out, shut my eyes, sleep, tired
i am struggling. really badly. i hate sounding like this. like theres nothing to feel, nothing to be gratfeul for, nothing to love, but i need the help. i genuinely dont know how much better i can get, if i can get better at all. the solution feels like the problem and i dont know how to change this way of thinking. where do i get the release? if i get a release at all. i dont feel well. i feel tired and cold and hungry.
i feel corrupt, and i feel stupid.
i wish shutting my eyes helped. made it go away. shut it out.
Filed under: Update | Tags: bruise, busy, cool, feel, josie underwood, sleep, slow, things, unbusy
tonight i was left unbusy. this left me lost as i had previously wanted to just get home and sleep, more than anything else, but when i realised that plans had changed and i could, i really didn’t want to and there was suddenly hundreds of other things to do.
i’ve hit another low. i dont know why or how. i felt like i felt good, but now i feel slow, tired and bruised. mostly because i am covered in bruises from the other night. literally – covered. they feel like battle wounds, which makes me cooler. kind of. right now i am feeling, just slow. i think iwill take some photo’s.
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she said.
was a bit wierd. crazy. hysterical, on my part.
i feel good today, because of yesterday. and measurements. i have work i need to do, but it seems ok. i want to do it. for the first time in a long while. i’m only really bothered by art though. nothing else seems to interest me.
sorry for being uninteresting.
Filed under: Update | Tags: doctor, dyed, hair, hair dye, nurse, seven, seven deadly sins
i love this smell. its soft meets chemical.
i went to the doctor. after going to the nurse. the doctor is getting me an appointment with a specialist. its all looking up. or down, in the contrasting way i feel about it.
seven deadly sins is going really well today. i took lots of photo’s for it yesterday, as i was meant to be in art, but knew i could get much more done at home. they came out really good, and i know am not so worried about my deadlines.
i dyed my hair tonight. its darker now.
